Men Don’t Cry

I had sex!
I was in college
(a place people go to have sex)
a girl
her name was J
she texted me
she said
“are you a virgin?”
“are you a MAN?”
she said
and I said
and she said
come to me
I did —
she invited me inside
and we had sex
and I thought
“I wonder what the best sex anyone has is”
(I bet it isn’t this)
and when it was over
she went to the bookshelf
and cleaned her vagina
with a baby-wipe
(a baby wipe is a thing you use to clean babies
and penises
and vaginas
vaginas are where babies come from
if you didn’t know)
she threw a baby wipe at me
and said
“clean yourself up”
and I felt like vomiting
I felt like I’d accidentally cut open a part of myself
and I was bleeding
and trying not to cry
and she said
“do you want to fuck me again?”
and I said
Men don’t cry.

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originally published in P.S. I Love You


5 comments on “Men Don’t Cry”
  1. emje says:

    my first time, the guy went down on me–not because he enjoyed it, he told me, but because it was “part of the fun.” when it was my turn to do him, i declined and spent years never believing a guy was actually enjoying cunnilingus–thereby not being able to enjoy it myself.
    first times suck. I call do-over.

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    1. They certainly do. I have a poem about my first time with that experience as well. It is never a sexy fun time, I had to pee sooo bad.

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  2. Love, love this. Exquisite.
    Also, I love your blog, it’s gorgeous.

    Liked by 1 person

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